i think i need a new town

it's a new school year.

it's a frightening thought, and yet something inevitable.
i'm a sophomore.  just two more years here, and then where to next?

my classes are alright.  i'm not looking forward to much this year, and already the workload is hard and i'm working to overcome procrastination.
hopefully i'll be alright in the end.

1] AP World History
sakole is amazing, he's really chill and explains well, and it helps that he's sarcastic and funny to keep up awake first thing in the morning.
this is one of my favorite classes at the moment, despite me forgotting things and losing points [after just a week too =/]

2] Tech Drawing
i have welch, and the class is...quiet.  i don't know anyone.  we spent a majority of time on the computers using CAD, so there's not really a need to think, just do.
it's supposed to get hard later on, so we'll see..

3] Chemistry Honors
dodson scares me.  she's really ocd, and she kind of...kills the atmosphere of the class. as in we're afraid to say anything or even breathe.  oh, and apparently we're two weeks ahead of all the other classes.
fun fun.

4] English Honors
duffy is really nice.  this is probably the only class i'm really really looking forward to. 

5] Gym
salvano...made us do nothing the first day of dressing out.  so i think it'll be an ok two quarters of gym.  hopefully so.

6] AlgII Honors
crescioli is really nice, and explains things really well.  i actually like the class a lot, but i'm hoping that i'll do well in it.. she has a really nice tablet and i want it. badly.

7] French II
Hagedorn is a much better teacher than barrau was last year, and i'm learning a lot more.  she's really nice, and the class is nice, so another class i'm looking forward to. 

on the other hand, i think i've quit karate from lack of time, though tennis is still in my list of priorities.  i'm hoping to make the team again and do a lot better.
oh, and i have a recent obsession with facial products [puaha thanks ricebunny].

list of items i want:
-La Mer Cream! [oh jeez, it's so expensive..]
-Burt Bee's French Clay Pore Refining Mask
-any nice face masks

why this obsession?  i don't like my face quality much, and i just like buying/using products.. call me a buying spaz xD
anyhow. other recent obsessions include augustana. i love them.
and old books.  i recently read the first three atermis fowl books, and i'd love to read more. puahaha.

if everything should be fine
why am i aprehensive?

if it's happiness

then why are you so sad?

i wonder

so besides the fact of life lately that i dislike being pissed off, yet i seem to be more than usual for family reasons,

life moves on.
i've done my first batch of AP work, and i've been drifting.
at this point, i can't wait for school to start and find something to distract me again.

i'm not exactly anticipating this year, nor am i dreading it.
it's just another year.
hopefully this way of thinking is going to wear off.

my schedule isn't bad this year, and i have pretty good teachers other than for chem [but then again all the chem teachers are supposed to be wack.]
i'm looking forward to my workload in APWorld, just so i can stay up and bury myself in something that's already happened.

my europe post  will be coming up soon, i promise.
like. i really will get it done.
i don't want to forget what i was up to there.

on another note, i was searching up covers for the river flows in you [by yiruma], and it came back with a bunch of results titled "Bella's Lullaby".
WHAT THE FACK IS THIS.
i'm not sure why it makes me so mad, but maybe it's the fact i don't want this lovely piece as a part of the Twilight lore.  it's a relatively good series, albeit cliche and badly written after the first book, but i really wish that readers would try to make something for it, rather than find things and making it part of the fanphase.
i know it's been done for other stories before, but it's always annoyed me.

untilnexttime.

worlds away

i know i said i would put up a europe post, and i really will.
sometime.

at the moment, i am battling AP and not succeeding.
i hate my face. i hate my fatness. i hate my stupidity.
i just hate.... myself at the moment for lack of better phrasing.

i'd love to sleep right now, and i have been for the past few days.
well, sleeping early at least.
personally, sleeping too much is a sign that something's wrong, and something feels wrong.
maybe it's everything, but then i realize it's not.
it's just me.

sadfg this is stupid, me complaining.

i wish.
what if.
i'll stop thinking like this one day.

"when words mean nothing
i'll be here singing
on and on and on"